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by Eliza Calllard  

In a seaside Italian hideaway, I took a photo
of her, her hair floating away in the wind as she sat
on a wall next to a shadowless planter. Shadows

couldn’t hold us, either, neither history nor future, nor
the strange light of the half-storm, until we sat in our rented
apartment and she taught me to sing for courage

to continue ‒ that night, to Genoa (eating garlic
spaghetti with our fingers on the train), to Barcelona
(with our Gaudi night), back to college. But

something broke on the train to Toulouse,
and by the time we reached Paris, we had sewed
on our shadows and grounded ourselves. I tilted

my head away from her across the aisle (our own
scent strong from the weeks far from a shower),
remembered the cat, Screamer, him warming her back

while she read, and tried to imagine our friendship
as a vase, perched, not yet shattered.

By Eliza Calllard

Eliza Callard’s childhood perceptions and memories were sharpened by the belief that she would die young from cystic fibrosis. By surprisingly reaching her 40s, she had to let go of the idea that all memories must be preserved and all friendships last forever. She is grateful for the friends and family she has, right now, in these moments. Her web address: Eliza Callard